Some voice...somewhere
Sunday, 26 July 2009 11:13
"Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up."
life, love and death...
Thursday, 23 July 2009 07:50
If you understand love you know that if anything in life is worth living for, it is for people to love, really and truly love, people. Yet if death is the end, what use is it to love anyone? If death is indeed the end of your existence, then love and hate and you and I and life are all transient puffs of smoke in an ultimately inanimate eternity. Even love will succumb to death, making its apparent beauty no more lasting than a winter's snow.
We really do not know, and will not know, what lies in store for us beyond the grave until the inevitable moment of death arrives. If life and love end at the grave we will never know the answer for we will no longer exist, and thus the question will die with us. Of course, as we have said, such an end would be the ultimate in painlessness, for it would take with it all the sad and glad and in between experiences of your lifetime. If you no longer are, you no longer are, period. The void that follows death without a life after death is a complete and total void. There would be no one to experience joy, there would be no one to experience pain.
We have said there is absolutely no way we can prove life continues beyond the grave, but we have also said there is absolutely no way we can prove it does not. We discussed the possibility of life having meaning without life after death. While we cannot be certain we are right, we explained why we believe that life has meaning only if there is a non-physical life after death.
If love is worth living for, and if the only realistic alternative is nihilistic death, then it seems that you, and I, and everyone else, should love each other and live for the possibility that we will continue to exist after death in an existence filled with love. Yet choosing love because the alternative is a meaningless death is not a good enough reason. Love must be chosen by those who in their heart, mind, and soul truly want to love, or their choice will be a shallow one that will not last. Those who choose to love must do so because they want to love.
XoXoXo
fofo
desicions..is 'you'
Friday, 17 July 2009 08:05
Each of us is born, we live lives of various lengths, and then we die. Each of us has, or perhaps develops, a separate nature and existence, a being, which is unique to us and sets us apart from every other person who lives or has ever lived. Indeed we share similar characteristics, but no two of us are the same person. As humans, each of us is distinct, each of us is an individual being.
What makes
each of us unique is the fact that we perpetually make choices between alternatives. Our choices seem to be far more than mechanical selections based on some complex biological decision making scheme. Rather, your choice seems to be based not only on what you believe will happen if you make a certain choice, but also on what you "want" to happen. You, as all of us do, possess the ability to engage in what we will call “rational thought”, whereby each of us weighs many variables in a process that includes concepts of good and evil, right and wrong. “Rational thought”, as we define it, is reasoned thought that presents us with choices between alternatives. You ultimately reach a point in your rational thinking where that certain quality of being which is unique to you takes over and you make your free choice among the alternatives.
What makes
each of us unique is the fact that we perpetually make choices between alternatives. Our choices seem to be far more than mechanical selections based on some complex biological decision making scheme. Rather, your choice seems to be based not only on what you believe will happen if you make a certain choice, but also on what you "want" to happen. You, as all of us do, possess the ability to engage in what we will call “rational thought”, whereby each of us weighs many variables in a process that includes concepts of good and evil, right and wrong. “Rational thought”, as we define it, is reasoned thought that presents us with choices between alternatives. You ultimately reach a point in your rational thinking where that certain quality of being which is unique to you takes over and you make your free choice among the alternatives. We note that no matter how predetermined your existence may be, it can be argued that "you" make freewill choices even if it is chemically determined what those choices will be, simply because "you" are the product of your biochemistry. While that argument, and variations of it, may be true by definition, it seems if we are to be held accountable for our actions we should have a freedom of choice that can be anticipated to be found only in that which is beyond human chemistry. We ask that you keep an open mind about the possible existence of individual control which makes your decisions truly your own.
Notes for Love..Who should u Luv?
Sunday, 12 July 2009 09:42
If you love another human being you are giving that human being your very best. If you love every human being you are doing the very best you can do for each of them. Similarly, if they love you they are doing the very best they can for you. It is not hard to see that a world where each and every person loves each and every other person would be the best possible world. Since each of us can love if and when we want to love, a world filled with love is very much a possibility. Pure love is so rare a quantity in daily life it may seem almost impossible that, if they are willing to, people can love all other people. Yet they can. We can bring about a world filled with love, a world that is worth living for.
Few of us seriously expect to see a day on earth when all people love one another. There are too many people for whom physical pleasure is more desirable than love. Only the most optimistic dreamers hold hope for a world filled with love. So what is the next best world? If you understand love you know you can love people even if they do not love you. You can always choose to love, and if love is the best you can do, does it not seem true that you should love even if you are not loved? Does it not seem intuitively true that you should always choose love?
If life ends with physical death, perhaps the proper response to hate would not be love, but would be some form of resistance to hate that minimizes its influence on others? Yet that cannot be, for we have already said if existence ends with physical death nothing we do really matters at all, so any response, or no response, would be equally acceptable. But what if life continues after death, would it matter what we do when faced with hate?
If life exists beyond the grave, and if love is the best part of life in this world, does it not seem intuitively likely that if life after death is to be good it will be an existence filled with love? Of course we are dealing with questions beyond human ability to answer, we are in fact in the murky area where intellect, insight, and intuition blend with belief and faith. There is no way at all we can say anything concrete about what life after death may or may not be like. Yet there exists a "feeling" that at least a portion of whatever lies beyond the grave, if anything, possesses the positive characteristics of life in this world. If we come to believe the most positive aspect of life is love, then the jump to postulating a life after death filled with love seems to be, for some reason, a rather comfortable assumption.
It is beyond human ability to know whether that assumption is based on a realistic interpretation of our existence, or whether it is an illusory fairy tale of immortality based on what our minds would like to be true. Even though we will not know if anything lies beyond physical death until we die, it somehow seems intuitively true that if those who choose to love on earth enter a life after death, it will be a life that is filled with love.
So what is our answer? Who should you love? If loving is good, the question really becomes is there anyone you should not love? If you understand love you know you can always love someone even if the person you love hates you. When you hate those who hate you, you are doing the same wrong to them they are doing to you. The natural reaction is to hate those who hate you, but if you understand love you should, after deep thought and consideration, reach the conclusion that since you never have to hate, you should always love (in our "additional notes" we discuss if there are any exceptions).
What if the person who hates you continues to hate you, and does all kinds of evil to you and to others without sign of remorse? Again, if you understand love you know you can always love another person even if that person hates you. If you can always choose to love people, does it not seem true that you should continue to love them even if they hate you? If we agree that the best we can do in this life, and in a life after death if one exists, is to love each other, the answer seems clear. If it is your choice to love or not, you should choose to love every moment of your earthly life. That means you should love even if you are not loved, even if you are hated.
If love is worth living for in this life, it is worth living for in whatever life may follow death. If it is possible that we continue to exist after death, it would seem that we should love now with the hope that when we die we will pass into a life where love will not only continue, but will be shared by all who join us there.
Does this mean you should never show any anger? If a child does something you know will hurt them, and those who love them, you will be disappointed and "angry" at both their actions, and perhaps at them. Yet anger that accompanies love is far different than anger that comes from hate, and is perhaps not anger at all. Such "anger" is in fact a deep and emotional concern for people, which seeks to bring a person back to love. The "anger" of a person who loves passes quickly when love is restored, and forgiveness is freely and repeatedly given. If you understand love, you know that if you love someone who hates you, you will forgive them each time they wrong you.
Loving someone does not mean you must condone, or even tolerate, the wrongs they do. Many people who love others and try to help them out of problems like gambling, drinking, casual sex, etc., find themselves defending the other person and slipping into their way of life. There is a fine line between being with people and loving and helping them, and, in an attempt to reach them, accepting at least part of their way of life. If at all times you keep in your heart, mind, and soul what it means to truly love, you will have no trouble knowing where that line is.
If you choose to love, you will constantly have to decide what you should do in particular situations. The natural tendency is to take a middle of the road position that seems to be positive toward everyone involved without being too negative toward yourself. You then declare that your decision is based on love, and all seems well. Loving is not that easy, every single decision about love must be made from your heart, mind, and soul.
If you want to love you must search your very being for the answers love requires, and you must be willing to accept without change the answers you find. You are driving home from work, heading for a birthday party your wife and friends have been planning for you. Traffic is heavy on the freeway. You see a man hitchhiking, he seems unsure of his footing, as you get closer you can tell he is drunk. If you stop you are sure to be late for your party, anyway, there are lots of cars one of which is bound to pick him up, and he doesn't look like he will stagger into the roadway.
You think, "he may be pretending to be drunk so he can rob somebody, a policeman is bound to drive by, I can call one as soon as I get home". Time to decide what to do. You want to drive on by him and not have to decide, but you know you have to stop or not stop. You stop your car, help the man into the passenger seat, he mumbles the town he is going to and then passes out. When you reach the right exit, you get off and try to rouse your passenger. He gets sick and throws up, you stop to let him get some air and to clean out the car.
You're forty minutes late for your party and there isn't a phone in sight. You think about leaving him at a gas station, but you help him back in the car and go on. He sees a bar, yells for you to stop, and curses you when you don't. You arrive in his hometown, but he is too drunk to remember where he lives. You see a motel, get the hitchhiker a room, and pay the desk clerk to look in on him to see he is all right and to bring him breakfast the next morning. You buy him some clean clothes and put them in the room.
You call home and your wife slams the phone down. Finally you arrive home three hours late, your guests have gone, your wife and kids are mad, you are hungry and cold. You think about all the hassle you went through; the party you missed, your party; the drunk hitchhiker cursing you. You think, I hope I never get into another situation like this one, but if I do, I'll do it all over again. If you have not completed your search you may not understand the love given the hitchhiker. If you have, you know that if you choose love you would do the same things the driver did.
If you love someone, whether they are your child or a stranger, you will do the very best you can for them. If you love someone you will do the best you can, every moment of your life, even if it means that you do not meet your own needs. You will gladly sacrifice your comfort so that they may have the best possible physical and emotional life. You will be filled with joy when they are happy.
You will have compassion for every human being who does not have enough to eat. You will bring them food, sit down with them to eat. You will give them the love that is in your heart, mind, and soul. You will not simply leave after you have fed them, you will love them for the rest of your life.
If you meet someone who is homeless, you will find shelter for them. Yet you will do more, you will visit them and help them with their daily lives. You will listen to their problems and work with them to find solutions. You will help them not because it makes you feel good, but because you love them.
You will care for those who are sick until they get well. You will care for them even if doing so puts your health at risk. You will be a companion to those who are elderly and who will not get well. You will counsel those who are depressed, comfort those whose minds are troubled, and find help for them.
You will spend time with those who are lonely. You will reach out to children who are left by themselves, and need companionship and guidance. You will welcome adults who other people find repulsive and ignore. You will not become impatient or want to be anywhere else. You will stay with them and share with them the love that is in your heart, mind, and soul.
Sit back, and think and think and think about loving people with true, pure, real, love. Take all the time you need to feel and experience the love inside you that you can give to all people. Complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul and know and understand love.
You choose love, that means everything is all right, right? In a very real sense the answer to that question is yes, for you everything is all right. Everything being all right does not, however, mean that your life on earth will be physically better. Probably it will get much worse, for those who choose not to love will be doubly hard on those who do. If you love someone you will not hit them when they strike you. You will give them food, and drink, and shelter even if they hate you and even if you end up not having enough for yourself. If you love them you will help them when they are sick, even if they have cheated you and cursed your stupidity. You will love them no matter what they do to you, with the knowledge that you are doing what all human beings
can and should do.
What if the choice comes whether to kill someone, or be killed by them? I cannot see how someone could choose to intentionally kill someone they love. Let me simply say it seems to me that if you continue to exist after death, and if it is true that if you love someone you will never kill them, then you have nothing to fear if because you love you die and enter an existence filled with love.
If love is right, even one decision not to love is wrong. It somehow seems to be intuitive, absolute, logic that during our some 100 or less years on earth, we should do that which may lead to the never ending joy of a life after death filled with love, day after day, year after year, millions of years after millions of years, forever and ever and ever and ever, and we should not do that which may lead to an endless life without love.
Difficult questions arise only because there are people who are unwilling to love each other. There are many people who chose not to love other people. There are many people who chose to hate other people. Even though it is a difficult answer, it seems intuitively clear to me that we should love those who love us and we should love those who hate us. Yet many say that we should not love those who hate us, and want to harm us. While I am convinced that we should love those who hate us, I cannot say with absolute certainty that you will agree with me after you complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul. The important thing to remember is that your answers to the millions of questions you face throughout your life must come from the knowledge and understanding of love that you will find when you complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul. You must be absolutely certain that you complete your search, and that you know and understand true, pure, real, love.
One essential warning, when faced with a hard question the normal human response is toward self-interest, with elaborate arguments to justify the answer and make it seem to be the result of love. The answer dictated by love is often (for some people almost always) very, very, hard to accept. Yet I am convinced that if you choose love you will accept the toughest of answers, and will find peace and hope in your decisions. At all times you must be absolutely certain that your answers are based on the knowledge and understanding of love you find in your heart, mind, and soul. You must be certain that you always choose true, pure, real, love.
Each moment of hate is a moment when you could have chosen love. If love is best, what could possibly be better than choosing to love every moment of your earthly life? The hope is that by choosing love you will pass on your death into an eternal life of love.
Few of us seriously expect to see a day on earth when all people love one another. There are too many people for whom physical pleasure is more desirable than love. Only the most optimistic dreamers hold hope for a world filled with love. So what is the next best world? If you understand love you know you can love people even if they do not love you. You can always choose to love, and if love is the best you can do, does it not seem true that you should love even if you are not loved? Does it not seem intuitively true that you should always choose love?
If life ends with physical death, perhaps the proper response to hate would not be love, but would be some form of resistance to hate that minimizes its influence on others? Yet that cannot be, for we have already said if existence ends with physical death nothing we do really matters at all, so any response, or no response, would be equally acceptable. But what if life continues after death, would it matter what we do when faced with hate?
If life exists beyond the grave, and if love is the best part of life in this world, does it not seem intuitively likely that if life after death is to be good it will be an existence filled with love? Of course we are dealing with questions beyond human ability to answer, we are in fact in the murky area where intellect, insight, and intuition blend with belief and faith. There is no way at all we can say anything concrete about what life after death may or may not be like. Yet there exists a "feeling" that at least a portion of whatever lies beyond the grave, if anything, possesses the positive characteristics of life in this world. If we come to believe the most positive aspect of life is love, then the jump to postulating a life after death filled with love seems to be, for some reason, a rather comfortable assumption.
It is beyond human ability to know whether that assumption is based on a realistic interpretation of our existence, or whether it is an illusory fairy tale of immortality based on what our minds would like to be true. Even though we will not know if anything lies beyond physical death until we die, it somehow seems intuitively true that if those who choose to love on earth enter a life after death, it will be a life that is filled with love.
So what is our answer? Who should you love? If loving is good, the question really becomes is there anyone you should not love? If you understand love you know you can always love someone even if the person you love hates you. When you hate those who hate you, you are doing the same wrong to them they are doing to you. The natural reaction is to hate those who hate you, but if you understand love you should, after deep thought and consideration, reach the conclusion that since you never have to hate, you should always love (in our "additional notes" we discuss if there are any exceptions).
What if the person who hates you continues to hate you, and does all kinds of evil to you and to others without sign of remorse? Again, if you understand love you know you can always love another person even if that person hates you. If you can always choose to love people, does it not seem true that you should continue to love them even if they hate you? If we agree that the best we can do in this life, and in a life after death if one exists, is to love each other, the answer seems clear. If it is your choice to love or not, you should choose to love every moment of your earthly life. That means you should love even if you are not loved, even if you are hated.
If love is worth living for in this life, it is worth living for in whatever life may follow death. If it is possible that we continue to exist after death, it would seem that we should love now with the hope that when we die we will pass into a life where love will not only continue, but will be shared by all who join us there.
Does this mean you should never show any anger? If a child does something you know will hurt them, and those who love them, you will be disappointed and "angry" at both their actions, and perhaps at them. Yet anger that accompanies love is far different than anger that comes from hate, and is perhaps not anger at all. Such "anger" is in fact a deep and emotional concern for people, which seeks to bring a person back to love. The "anger" of a person who loves passes quickly when love is restored, and forgiveness is freely and repeatedly given. If you understand love, you know that if you love someone who hates you, you will forgive them each time they wrong you.
Loving someone does not mean you must condone, or even tolerate, the wrongs they do. Many people who love others and try to help them out of problems like gambling, drinking, casual sex, etc., find themselves defending the other person and slipping into their way of life. There is a fine line between being with people and loving and helping them, and, in an attempt to reach them, accepting at least part of their way of life. If at all times you keep in your heart, mind, and soul what it means to truly love, you will have no trouble knowing where that line is.
If you choose to love, you will constantly have to decide what you should do in particular situations. The natural tendency is to take a middle of the road position that seems to be positive toward everyone involved without being too negative toward yourself. You then declare that your decision is based on love, and all seems well. Loving is not that easy, every single decision about love must be made from your heart, mind, and soul.
If you want to love you must search your very being for the answers love requires, and you must be willing to accept without change the answers you find. You are driving home from work, heading for a birthday party your wife and friends have been planning for you. Traffic is heavy on the freeway. You see a man hitchhiking, he seems unsure of his footing, as you get closer you can tell he is drunk. If you stop you are sure to be late for your party, anyway, there are lots of cars one of which is bound to pick him up, and he doesn't look like he will stagger into the roadway.
You think, "he may be pretending to be drunk so he can rob somebody, a policeman is bound to drive by, I can call one as soon as I get home". Time to decide what to do. You want to drive on by him and not have to decide, but you know you have to stop or not stop. You stop your car, help the man into the passenger seat, he mumbles the town he is going to and then passes out. When you reach the right exit, you get off and try to rouse your passenger. He gets sick and throws up, you stop to let him get some air and to clean out the car.
You're forty minutes late for your party and there isn't a phone in sight. You think about leaving him at a gas station, but you help him back in the car and go on. He sees a bar, yells for you to stop, and curses you when you don't. You arrive in his hometown, but he is too drunk to remember where he lives. You see a motel, get the hitchhiker a room, and pay the desk clerk to look in on him to see he is all right and to bring him breakfast the next morning. You buy him some clean clothes and put them in the room.
You call home and your wife slams the phone down. Finally you arrive home three hours late, your guests have gone, your wife and kids are mad, you are hungry and cold. You think about all the hassle you went through; the party you missed, your party; the drunk hitchhiker cursing you. You think, I hope I never get into another situation like this one, but if I do, I'll do it all over again. If you have not completed your search you may not understand the love given the hitchhiker. If you have, you know that if you choose love you would do the same things the driver did.
If you love someone, whether they are your child or a stranger, you will do the very best you can for them. If you love someone you will do the best you can, every moment of your life, even if it means that you do not meet your own needs. You will gladly sacrifice your comfort so that they may have the best possible physical and emotional life. You will be filled with joy when they are happy.
You will have compassion for every human being who does not have enough to eat. You will bring them food, sit down with them to eat. You will give them the love that is in your heart, mind, and soul. You will not simply leave after you have fed them, you will love them for the rest of your life.
If you meet someone who is homeless, you will find shelter for them. Yet you will do more, you will visit them and help them with their daily lives. You will listen to their problems and work with them to find solutions. You will help them not because it makes you feel good, but because you love them.
You will care for those who are sick until they get well. You will care for them even if doing so puts your health at risk. You will be a companion to those who are elderly and who will not get well. You will counsel those who are depressed, comfort those whose minds are troubled, and find help for them.
You will spend time with those who are lonely. You will reach out to children who are left by themselves, and need companionship and guidance. You will welcome adults who other people find repulsive and ignore. You will not become impatient or want to be anywhere else. You will stay with them and share with them the love that is in your heart, mind, and soul.
Sit back, and think and think and think about loving people with true, pure, real, love. Take all the time you need to feel and experience the love inside you that you can give to all people. Complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul and know and understand love.
You choose love, that means everything is all right, right? In a very real sense the answer to that question is yes, for you everything is all right. Everything being all right does not, however, mean that your life on earth will be physically better. Probably it will get much worse, for those who choose not to love will be doubly hard on those who do. If you love someone you will not hit them when they strike you. You will give them food, and drink, and shelter even if they hate you and even if you end up not having enough for yourself. If you love them you will help them when they are sick, even if they have cheated you and cursed your stupidity. You will love them no matter what they do to you, with the knowledge that you are doing what all human beings
can and should do.What if the choice comes whether to kill someone, or be killed by them? I cannot see how someone could choose to intentionally kill someone they love. Let me simply say it seems to me that if you continue to exist after death, and if it is true that if you love someone you will never kill them, then you have nothing to fear if because you love you die and enter an existence filled with love.
If love is right, even one decision not to love is wrong. It somehow seems to be intuitive, absolute, logic that during our some 100 or less years on earth, we should do that which may lead to the never ending joy of a life after death filled with love, day after day, year after year, millions of years after millions of years, forever and ever and ever and ever, and we should not do that which may lead to an endless life without love.
Difficult questions arise only because there are people who are unwilling to love each other. There are many people who chose not to love other people. There are many people who chose to hate other people. Even though it is a difficult answer, it seems intuitively clear to me that we should love those who love us and we should love those who hate us. Yet many say that we should not love those who hate us, and want to harm us. While I am convinced that we should love those who hate us, I cannot say with absolute certainty that you will agree with me after you complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul. The important thing to remember is that your answers to the millions of questions you face throughout your life must come from the knowledge and understanding of love that you will find when you complete your search of your heart, mind, and soul. You must be absolutely certain that you complete your search, and that you know and understand true, pure, real, love.
One essential warning, when faced with a hard question the normal human response is toward self-interest, with elaborate arguments to justify the answer and make it seem to be the result of love. The answer dictated by love is often (for some people almost always) very, very, hard to accept. Yet I am convinced that if you choose love you will accept the toughest of answers, and will find peace and hope in your decisions. At all times you must be absolutely certain that your answers are based on the knowledge and understanding of love you find in your heart, mind, and soul. You must be certain that you always choose true, pure, real, love.
Each moment of hate is a moment when you could have chosen love. If love is best, what could possibly be better than choosing to love every moment of your earthly life? The hope is that by choosing love you will pass on your death into an eternal life of love.
-Thanks Aish for your lovely notes..
XoXoXo
fofo
hey World...
Friday, 10 July 2009 08:47
Me again...
Of coz...Who else? heeeee...
Well,end of dis week...It's WEEKEND...yeah!
but,can't enjoy till I lost my mind yet..
Coz my tasks,assignments,tests...not finish' yet..arrrghhhh...!
Not much dis week..
Like always..Im busy with my tests..a bulk of assignments..damn!
My promo? hmmm...not going smoothly..
coz my leturers too fussy...
I need to figure it out again..
but i think I got it...!
Somehow and somewhat...
Mini....Mini...
When we wanna meet?
I missed to ride your mini coops...
huhu...(euhhhh....please dun read dis...if u are 20++) hahaaaa...
Anything,I will update to ya...
till we meet again..
bubye...
XoXoXO
fofo
Of coz...Who else? heeeee...
Well,end of dis week...It's WEEKEND...yeah!
but,can't enjoy till I lost my mind yet..
Coz my tasks,assignments,tests...not finish' yet..arrrghhhh...!
Not much dis week..
Like always..Im busy with my tests..a bulk of assignments..damn!
My promo? hmmm...not going smoothly..
coz my leturers too fussy...
I need to figure it out again..
but i think I got it...!
Somehow and somewhat...
I need time to spend with my old friends...
Babe, I'm comin'...haahaa...
Mini....Mini...
When we wanna meet?
I missed to ride your mini coops...
huhu...(euhhhh....please dun read dis...if u are 20++) hahaaaa...
Anything,I will update to ya...
till we meet again..
bubye...
XoXoXO
fofo
Love or Friendship..?
Saturday, 4 July 2009 11:46
I look at him,
And a smile grows in my face.
Just to remember the times,
When he could've been mine
As he gives me a hug,
While he puts his arms around me.
I remember what I would've gave
To only have a chance with him.
But now I see him,
In a different light.
Yes, he still means the world to me,
But now its a different way.
His friendship means a lot to me,
Although we never had much anything else.
Now I see why God doesn't answer all prayers,
Because some things are left better untouched.
And a smile grows in my face.
Just to remember the times,
When he could've been mine
As he gives me a hug,
While he puts his arms around me.
I remember what I would've gave
To only have a chance with him.
But now I see him,
In a different light.
Yes, he still means the world to me,
But now its a different way.
His friendship means a lot to me,
Although we never had much anything else.
Now I see why God doesn't answer all prayers,
Because some things are left better untouched.
up..and down...
Thursday, 2 July 2009 07:10
hey guys..
Im back..
I juz wanna update my blog with dis week story that happened to me...
Well..
hmmm....macam speech lak..haahaa..
ape2 pun minggu ni aku sgt busy..
everyday aku lik umah kul 3pagi..paling awal kul 12mlm..
eeeuhhh...
aku dh mcm org dh berperasaan...
g kelas,lik umah tido..
mkn pun xlalu..coz penat..and sort of problems..
OOoo...b4 aku lupa..
thanks to u guys..coz supported me...
nasihat2 yg superb..(even aku rasa cm....haahaa..)
and korg sudi dgr aku nye probs...
damn...aku xtau nk ckp cmne..
korang wat aku 'hidup' smula..
And to others..
sorry if aku x contact korang..
aku seriusly busy..no kiddin'..
Baru2 ni, aku kene present idea utk promo mmu..
Well,not bad..lecturer juz suh aku nye group touchup je..
yg aku bengang...ade sorang minah ni nk masuk sgt group aku..
aku ckp xnk but dia g jumpa lecturer and finally,she did it..
O.M.G...! the whole of my class pandang kat aku...
seriously,my face absolutely change..
yelaa...dh aku xsuka..
member aku tegur...SO?? xkan aku nk pura2 "Hey..Welcome to my group.."
Euuuhhh.....WTH..!
aku bukan nye ape, coz history dat gurl xleh wat keje..
bukan aku sorang je ckp, satu kelas pun ade ckp ngn aku..
huuuhuu..God..!
then,bila dh masuk group aku..xde nk tanye ape yg kitorg dh wat...
Kitorng smpai tido lmbat utk siapkan proposal..dia senang2 cuci kaki and masuk je..
"Hey..who r u bitch..!"
Next, aku minggu ni ade speech..
tajuk aku dpt pasal "poppy at Afghanistan.." mummmyyy...cm nk nangis je..
No idea...so,cmne nk speech..
dh laaa kasi 5min nk prepared..huuhuu...mmg aku goreng laa ape yg aku tau...
pasal poor economy, war...etc..
lecturer tu senyum je kat aku..
last2 aku ckp "sorry Sir, Im really2 no idea with dis topic.."
Arrrghhh....
aku gak ade 2 test yg nk kene wat...2day..
damn...
Finally..aku nk ckp yg xsemua ape yg kita harapkan akan dapat...
ape yg berlaku ade hikmahnye..
but remember "wut goes around comes around.."
"Dress to impress and never let them see you frown,cause there are people that would kill to see you down.."
even aku npk cm xmatured..but my mind it is...
aku tgk kdg2 org nk npk matured dlm smua hal..but sbnrnye kosong..
to my family..sorry coz I did something wrong..
aku xnk sshkan dorg..
aku juz diam kan diri coz nk pulihkan my spirits...
my sis...thanks 4 everythings that you've done..
ok guys..nk study..
bubye...
"Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up."
XoXoXo
fofo
Im back..
I juz wanna update my blog with dis week story that happened to me...
Well..
hmmm....macam speech lak..haahaa..
ape2 pun minggu ni aku sgt busy..
everyday aku lik umah kul 3pagi..paling awal kul 12mlm..
eeeuhhh...
aku dh mcm org dh berperasaan...
g kelas,lik umah tido..
mkn pun xlalu..coz penat..and sort of problems..
OOoo...b4 aku lupa..
thanks to u guys..coz supported me...
nasihat2 yg superb..(even aku rasa cm....haahaa..)
and korg sudi dgr aku nye probs...
damn...aku xtau nk ckp cmne..
korang wat aku 'hidup' smula..
And to others..
sorry if aku x contact korang..
aku seriusly busy..no kiddin'..
Baru2 ni, aku kene present idea utk promo mmu..
Well,not bad..lecturer juz suh aku nye group touchup je..
yg aku bengang...ade sorang minah ni nk masuk sgt group aku..
aku ckp xnk but dia g jumpa lecturer and finally,she did it..
O.M.G...! the whole of my class pandang kat aku...
seriously,my face absolutely change..
yelaa...dh aku xsuka..
member aku tegur...SO?? xkan aku nk pura2 "Hey..Welcome to my group.."
Euuuhhh.....WTH..!
aku bukan nye ape, coz history dat gurl xleh wat keje..
bukan aku sorang je ckp, satu kelas pun ade ckp ngn aku..
huuuhuu..God..!
then,bila dh masuk group aku..xde nk tanye ape yg kitorg dh wat...
Kitorng smpai tido lmbat utk siapkan proposal..dia senang2 cuci kaki and masuk je..
"Hey..who r u bitch..!"
Next, aku minggu ni ade speech..
tajuk aku dpt pasal "poppy at Afghanistan.." mummmyyy...cm nk nangis je..
No idea...so,cmne nk speech..
dh laaa kasi 5min nk prepared..huuhuu...mmg aku goreng laa ape yg aku tau...
pasal poor economy, war...etc..
lecturer tu senyum je kat aku..
last2 aku ckp "sorry Sir, Im really2 no idea with dis topic.."
Arrrghhh....
aku gak ade 2 test yg nk kene wat...2day..
damn...
Finally..aku nk ckp yg xsemua ape yg kita harapkan akan dapat...
ape yg berlaku ade hikmahnye..
but remember "wut goes around comes around.."
"Dress to impress and never let them see you frown,cause there are people that would kill to see you down.."
even aku npk cm xmatured..but my mind it is...
aku tgk kdg2 org nk npk matured dlm smua hal..but sbnrnye kosong..
to my family..sorry coz I did something wrong..
aku xnk sshkan dorg..
aku juz diam kan diri coz nk pulihkan my spirits...
my sis...thanks 4 everythings that you've done..
ok guys..nk study..
bubye...
"Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up."
XoXoXo
fofo